{"id":18,"date":"2018-02-26T13:41:00","date_gmt":"2018-02-26T11:41:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blogit.terve.fi\/mariaisstrong\/2018\/02\/26\/melankoliset-fiilikset-raskas-olo-rasittaa\/"},"modified":"2018-02-26T13:41:00","modified_gmt":"2018-02-26T11:41:00","slug":"melankoliset-fiilikset-raskas-olo-rasittaa","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogit.terve.fi\/mariaisstrong\/melankoliset-fiilikset-raskas-olo-rasittaa\/","title":{"rendered":"Melankoliset fiilikset – raskas olo rasittaa"},"content":{"rendered":"
\nOlo on jotenkin melankolinen. Ehk\u00e4 siin\u00e4 juuri syy, miksi blogissakin on ollut hiljaisempaa. En koe oloani masentuneeksi. Siit\u00e4 olotilasta on runsaasti kokemusta. Surullinenkaan en ole, vaikka viime viikkojen aikana on pari kertaa tullut rumaa r\u00e4k\u00e4itkuakin itketty\u00e4. On vain sellainen raskas ja valju  olo.<\/div>\n
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\nKai se on n\u00e4m\u00e4 pime\u00e4t talvikuukaudet, jotka alkaa pikkuhiljaa painamaan p\u00e4\u00e4lle. Auringonvaloa on jo enemm\u00e4n, mutta kuopusta lainastakseni kun h\u00e4n v\u00e4en v\u00e4ng\u00e4ll\u00e4 yritti itke\u00e4 viime viikolla ja katseli haikeana ikkunasta ulos: minulla on ik\u00e4v\u00e4 kes\u00e4\u00e4! No, kuopuksen toteamus kyll\u00e4 huvitti.<\/div>\n
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\nNo, loppujen lopuksi se melankolinen tunne liittyy t\u00e4h\u00e4n ms-tautiin. Ehk\u00e4 viel\u00e4kin odotan sit\u00e4, ett\u00e4 vointi muuttuu siihen, mit\u00e4 se on terveen\u00e4 ollessa. V\u00e4lill\u00e4 on niit\u00e4kin p\u00e4ivi\u00e4, mutta tauti muistuttaa itsest\u00e4\u00e4n joka ikinen p\u00e4iv\u00e4. Viimeisien p\u00e4ivien aikana olen joutunut turvautumaan hermokipul\u00e4\u00e4kkeeseen useamman kerran. Kunnon hermokipuja ei olekaan ollut t\u00e4ss\u00e4 m\u00e4\u00e4rin pidemp\u00e4\u00e4n aikaan. T\u00e4n\u00e4 aamuna tasapaino vet\u00e4\u00e4 vasemmalle ja vasen jalka tuntuu omituiselta. \u00c4rsytt\u00e4\u00e4, ett\u00e4 tauti on alkanut taas \u00e4rhennell\u00e4 samalla kun yrit\u00e4n pit\u00e4\u00e4 itsest\u00e4 parempaa huolta. K\u00e4yn pari kertaa viikossa kuntouttamassa kroppaa kuntosalilla. Kotona teen lihasharjoituksia. Olen j\u00e4tt\u00e4nyt gluteenin pois ruokavaliosta ja muutenkin menossa on ‘el\u00e4m\u00e4nmakuisen’ lis\u00e4ksi inhokkisanani ‘ruokaremontti’. (sivuhuomautuksena noista ruokavalioista kuten gluteenittomasta. Niist\u00e4 ei ole varsinaisesti mit\u00e4\u00e4n vedenpit\u00e4v\u00e4\u00e4 tutkimusta, ett\u00e4 ne auttaisi ms-taudin suhteen. Itse kuitenkin j\u00e4lleen gluteenittomalla ruokavaliolla oltuani, olen kokeillut vehn\u00e4\u00e4 ja kroppa ilmoitti hyvin pian, ett\u00e4 t\u00e4st\u00e4 me ei tyk\u00e4t\u00e4. Eli gluteenittomana jatkan, oli siit\u00e4 sitten apua tautiin tai ei.)<\/i><\/div>\n
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\nVeikkaan, ett\u00e4 ylianalysoin sit\u00e4, miten tautiin pit\u00e4isi suhtautua. En halua ottaa k\u00e4rsiv\u00e4n uhrin osaa suhteessa sairauteen, mutta en jaksa my\u00f6sk\u00e4\u00e4n olla, niin kuin kaikki olisi okei. Kai se niiden kahden v\u00e4limaasto on vaan olla ollakseen. T\u00e4\u00e4 on nyt vaan t\u00e4t\u00e4. Sama toimintamalli t\u00e4ytyy ottaa t\u00e4m\u00e4n melankolian kanssa. Se on nyt vaan sit\u00e4. Hengittelen sen kanssa ja jonkin ajan kuluttua huomaan sen muuttuneen jo toiseen tunteeseen.<\/div>\n
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\nI’ve feeling quite somber. Maybe that’s the reason why it’s been quite quiet here in the blog. I do not feel particularly depressed (I’ve got quite a lot experience). I am not really sad even if I had few episodes of really “ugly cry” in the last few weeks. I just feel having a black dog on my shoulder. Maybe it is these dark winter months that starting subside. The days are longer and sun is shining but still… Have to quote my youngest who was looking out of the window last week trying to cry few tears and she said  so longingly: ” I miss summer”. ( that did make me chuckle) <\/i><\/div>\n
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\nIn the end it is this illness of mine that is making me so melancholy. I think I am still waiting that my overall health will be what it was before MS. Sure, I still have those days every now and again but MS reminds me of it every day somehow. Nerve pains have been a problem in since the weekend. This morning my balance is off and my left leg feels unusual. This annoys me especially as I am looking after myself more than before. I do twice a week to gym to rehabilitation I do exercises at home. I have left gluten out of my diet and overall try to eat healthier. (side note: gluten free diet is not proven to help with MS but as I again left it out and after few weeks tried it again my body reacted to it bad. Clear sign: leave the gluten off).<\/i><\/div>\n
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\nI am sure I overanalyze also how I should take this illness. I do not want to be a victim but I am tired pretending that everything is ok. I suppose the place in between is that this is just what it is. The same logic goes with this somber feeling. It is just what it is. I will just breath through it and eventually I  will notice it has passed.<\/i><\/div>\n
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